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Starting Over

July 31st, 2008 · 3 Comments

I have this thing with starting over, beginning again, fresh, a new. As I move from one state of mind to the next I constantly begin to start over.When I was younger I attempted many a time to be a dedicated and consistent journal writer. Alas, it never happened. I would write sporadic entries only to re-read them years later and decide that the said entries were overly passionate and poorly executed. I would then rip the pages from my many journals only to start again, on a clean slate, compose what I thought was a better journal entry.

Looking back, I obviously regrette discarding those beautiful pages, no matter how silly they seem in retrospect. Those thoughts or stories that I wrote, those few and far between personal histories would give me a lot of insight into where I’ve come from.  My mom always kept things that I did when I was little, saying, “You’ll love to look back at them when you’re 30″. I wish I had applied that thinking to some of, what I thought were my less important works. Although, thank God for the preservation of those macoroni necklaces.

The reason for this topic today is that it has been since April thirtieth that I made the last entry on this blog of mine. April thirtieth, the date the reason for the existence of this blog (my ideas and performance class) ended.So, even if this is only one more sporadic entry, I wish to begin again. And start from a place of writing that isn’t part of a class and that will most likely not be read by any of my class mates.However, this time, when I “start over” I will not erase or delete what I have written so far. I won’t search for a new blog hosting site to start fresh there either. I will just write from my current perspective regardless of whether I deem previous entries fit to appear next to my “born again” ones.So, regardless of the consistency this blog will have, especially as I am about to begin my last undergraduate fall semester. Here’s to new beginnings and starting something over without taking away any history no matter how small.

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